The Cardonas: BACK TO THE GRIND

PANAMA

Well here I am trying to make my blog try and be a little more active....so much has happened and it would take me months to try and get it all in so I think I will just press forward and try and get more posts in. Theses past couple years have had its challenges though. For me and the family. But through all the ups and downs, I'm still happy. I have much to be grateful for. Elias has been gone to Panama since May 11 and I have missed him a lot. Hopefully maybe another week or so and he will be back. His dad passed away around 2am and he woke me up and told me about it and asked if I would pray with him. I don't remember what was said but just remember how special that moment was. He had to leave the next day at the last minute and has been down there working on his business that wasn't all it was expected to me. Its hard to run a company from another country. So he has decided to sell his trucks and come back home. I think that is a good idea. I've started working more since he's been gone. I work some days at Aeropostale and I'm also working fulltime at Sunset ridge Apts. Its crazy sitting here and its so quite compared to what im use to at home. I think this will be a good thing for me. I've been a stay at home mom for the past 2.5 years and it feels good to get out and do something. Plus, when I get home, I feel so much more patient and loving with the kids too. Even though I may be tired. I feel I still have more of me to go around. Having a family is such a blessing. Sometimes I thnk people take that for granted and dont appreciate what they have. I may be one of them. I've been trying really hard lately to be a better person all together. I've done a lot of praying, fasting, reading scriptures and listening to confrences talks. I also have been singing my kids to bed with Hymns or primary songs....most nights. I have to say my life has greatlly improved since I've done that. I hope to stregthen myself more and more each day.I really enjoy the temple and am trying to get myself there more often. I pray I will have to knowlegde to teach my children what they need to know. I pray I can be a forgiving, loving and understanding wife for my husband. Sometimes I think about how I act and I am the kind of person who can tell u what u r doing wrong but I know that I need to focus more on myself. I'm very grateful for all the love and help I've had from my family. It feels so great to know u have people there for when u fall... and try to hold u up even though u weigh 3902570489579 lbs!! ha ha but really my family is always there for me when I need them.

My sister Lucy has been at my house just about every single day helping me clean, cook, watch the kids, hug me, do my hair, let me cry all over her....and so much more. What a great heart she has. Even when she doesnt have much to give, she would give it all just to help someone else. So thank u my little Lucy for everything. U mean the world to me!! I love u so much!!! You are like a daughter to me!! hahhahahah

So as far as pictures go for this blog....I'm just going to post a few Elias has sent me from panama. Now that things have calmed down, he has gone to the beach for the weekend and was finally able to relax and enjoy the beatuiful panama.